Are your fears real? Do they even exist? Lately I have spent more of my time brooding instead of doing other productive things. For no just reason I would go on the net and read up stuff that would make me sad, annoyed and fed up with everything.
It all stems from a fear, the fear of what if, what about, what they will say, what they think, what will? All these WHATS dominate my existence for the past three weeks. Most times I catch myself deep in thoughts, I would quickly grab my phone and try to pen down the thoughts, one thing would lead to another and I would find myself in Instagram checking random people’s feeds and feeling really down at how static I have been when others are progressing. Progress in form of what they put out there for me and hundreds or thousands of others to see, what could be real or blatantly false.
I talked about reevaluation few days back, part of moving forward from all psychological chains I have imprisoned myself with is asking myself if what I am indulging in is good for me, the values it will add to my life, I have decided to stop wasting my time on things that are not useful to me and what I stand for.
Some fears are not real, they are harmless things we breathe life into by giving it too much space in our head, it is all in our head, it could be the way our parents have molded us to look at life which will automatically make us look at things with their eyes, their perspectives to life will form the basis of our existence and we spend the rest of our lives thinking of the what ifs. Many of us have unnecessary fears because we are scared of being seen in a certain way, we hide our true selves so that we won’t be judged for who we are, what we are but who are they to judge us? We want everyone to see us as next to perfect when the word perfect is not even perfect!
Some things are not real, our head is good at playing tricks with us, we should not allow ourselves to be bullied into being the weaker version of ourselves.
Embrace your true self.